Five Months Later...

"It'll get easier with time."

It's such a common phrase for people to say. It has been five months since you passed. Five months since I last saw your face. Five months since I got to tell you I love you and hear it back. 

I wish I could hear your voice again. Laugh along with you to some joke. Hug you close and never let you go. 

Tomorrow's Easter. The holidays are some of the worst days and I dread them. It's bittersweet celebrating when the person I want to celebrate with the most is gone. Wish, I could just curl up in a ball and sob all day long. I'm thankful that I have a mother and brother who will not allow that to happen though. 

I cannot say the amount of times I have laid in bed with my scattered thoughts all on you. When you got sick, I prayed every night for a quick recovery. I regret not getting to spend more time with you those last days. 

I love you, Daddy. It is my hope that I will continue to make you proud the rest of my life. I promise to keep the faith no matter how hard these days are. 

"One more day, one more time
One more sunset, maybe I'd be satisfied
But then again, I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still for one more day with you
One more day
 
First thing I'd do is pray for time to crawl
I'd unplug the telephone and keep the TV off
I'd hold you every second
Say a million I love you's
That's what I'd do with one more day with you"
         

     "One More Day" by Diamond Rio